Per Adam's mom, today is much like yesterday. His WBC is still at .5, which breaks my heart in so many ways that I can't even explain them all. It puts the harvest in serious question, since he must receive double shots of GCSF for four days in order to proceed and we're down to the wire now. His hemoglobin dropped more, and his platelets are still extremely low. He's just not recovering.
After the joy of last cycle's rapid comeback and getting to have him home for a few days, this feels like a cruel punch to the gut. We have lots of questions for the doctor, but my heart is so heavy right now. I'm really worried that he's not going to come out of this cycle, that's he's going to just deterioriate until he dies, that he won't get to come home again and that he'll never meet his baby brother.
I'm crying out to God, but as usual of late, nothing. I don't know what to think these days.