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Our family of 6 (dad Adam, mom Sherry, big sister Abby and little brothers Isaac and Brady -- who was born on December 14, 2010) joined the ranks of pediatric cancer fighters when our 4-year old son Logan was diagnosed with a dangerous and highly malignant form of brain cancer in mid-August 2010. Logan's cancer journey began abruptly on Sunday, August 15, when his right eye suddenly turned inward during dinner. Twenty-four hours later, we were checking into Children's Hospital Oakland and finding out that life sometimes takes you places you'd never, ever imagine yourself going.

Monday, November 8, 2010

The Logan Update: 10/1/10

It's hard to be hopeful on days like today. It's hard to really believe that Logan could ever overcome the evil growing within him when he's as miserable as he was all afternoon: The vomiting, the pain, the frustration. While part of me is angry and has my defensive wall firmly set in place, another much smaller, much quieter part whispers 'well, the worse things get, the more impressive the miracle could be'. Yes... if I really believed in miracles. I suppose I still do. I'm just not sure that I believe they'd ever happen for us; for me.

That aside, the emotional ebb and flow feels almost akin to abuse; at times I feel like a rubber band that's been expanded and contracted so many times over the past 6 weeks that I could snap for good at any moment. I know that people are subject to stretching because it makes us grow into better people, but when I look at our situation, I find myself thinking 'dude, this is a bit much'. Just a bit.

Just sad. Frustrated. Tired. Missing normalcy. Aching for a normal, boring Friday night. But knowing that it won't happen anytime soon, if it ever happens again.

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