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Our family of 6 (dad Adam, mom Sherry, big sister Abby and little brothers Isaac and Brady -- who was born on December 14, 2010) joined the ranks of pediatric cancer fighters when our 4-year old son Logan was diagnosed with a dangerous and highly malignant form of brain cancer in mid-August 2010. Logan's cancer journey began abruptly on Sunday, August 15, when his right eye suddenly turned inward during dinner. Twenty-four hours later, we were checking into Children's Hospital Oakland and finding out that life sometimes takes you places you'd never, ever imagine yourself going.

Friday, February 25, 2011

Urgency

My heart is heavy, but I continue to hold on to hope. And it's not a function of me desperately grabbing onto something to keep myself afloat during this horrific time. No, it's me proclaiming Christ and affirming that God has the power to heal no matter how dire the circumstance, no matter how hopeless the situation may seem to human eyes. He merely has to choose to do it. Oh, to know the heart of God and to understand why this is happening to my sunshine would be such a sweet relief. But it's not mine to know, so I must hold onto faith and move forward. I have no reason to not trust, after all: He brought Logan safely through surgery on Tuesday, guided Dr. Sun's hands through the task of removing the mass in very successful fashion, and brought Logan home to us this afternoon, a mere three days after his operation. Since we're now more or less in Miracle Alley, as I call it -- a place where little short of a miracle will make Logan well -- I pray with every fiber of my being that He will choose to use the upcoming treatments to heal my son once and for all, just as he used the surgery Tuesday to bring healing to his brain.

I'm back again this evening to express my heartfelt thanks to our preschool. Ms. Kelly, the director, came by this evening with two huge bins filled with gifts for our kids and our family. Watching them sit there on the living room floor enthusiastically tearing through the bounty of generosity brought tears to my eyes for the upteenth time today. As awful as this journey is, we've been so blessed by the kindness of friends, family, even complete strangers. So a deep, sincere thank you to everyone from SLP who worked to brighten my family's day today.

I also felt pressed to return and write more because I wanted to be more specific with our prayer requests. Please pray, as I requested that you pray for the primary brain mass, that God would press his finger against the tumors in his spine and prevent them from growing -- and prevent new ones from forming -- in the days to come. The prayers worked the first time, since the primary mass remained stable between MRIs; please offer them up again. If they do grow larger, he could begin to experience weakness in his legs, and could even lose bladder control and the ability to walk. Please pray against those things. Pray the bold prayer that God will not only put a finger on the tumors, but that He would crush them into nothingness, that He would eradicate the cancerous cells from his precious little body. Pray it, visualize it. Pray also that his brain will remain clear of cancer; the radiation will focus first on his spinal column, since that's the current problem area, and it worries me to think of his brain being attacked once again while it's not undergoing direct treatment. Pray that the radiation would be completely successful and the side effects surprisingly minimal. And pray for wisdom for the doctors and for Adam and myself. In addition to radiation, Philippa called this afternoon and said that Dr. T. wanted to start him on two new chemo drugs as well to try to combat the spinal tumors; please pray that those drugs would be extraordinarily, mind-blowingly effective.

But more than anything, please just pray. Please petition God to restore my baby's health and well-being. I want him to grow up, to have a life here. He's an amazing person. He deserves so much better than this scourge that's invaded his body. He deserves more than a sad story attached to his name. Please ask God to heal him.

I can't really convey the depth of my emotions or how urgently I'm pleading with each and every one of you to pray as much as you can, as often as you can. How desperate I am for more prayer warriors to join Logan's team to lift him up. If each of you asked just one more person to join in, the wave of prayer would grow exponentially. Just imagine, for a moment, that it's your son, grandson, nephew. Your best friend's child. Pray as if Logan were one of those people, and beg God to heal him. I believe in the power of prayer. I believe in miracles. And I believe that there's a powerful story of redemption waiting to be written here. Thank you.

18 comments:

  1. We are praying for you all, every day, all day.

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  2. To Logan and His strong Mommy and Daddy, Brothers and Big Sis. My name is Tracy Coffman. My husband and I have a son Matthew who has been at SLP for 2 years now and we found out about Logan not too long ago. We have been wearing his bracelets and thinking of him and you non-stop. We didn't get to chip in on the goodies yet... We have been trying to explain to Matthew about how sick Logan is and he wants to get him some wall stickers and a cars poster for his hospital room. Our hearts have been aching non stop for you and your family and we want to help out in any way possible. Im not sure if he needs/wants any special movies or anything to help make him and all of you smile again even for just a minute. Please know that you are in our constant prayers and that we really hope that God can work his magic and take all of Logans pain away and he can be a happy, healthy, loving babe that he should be. Much love and prayer being sent your way from all of us. Please email me with any and all ideas of what Matthew and we can do to make him smile. tmac8121@yahoo.com

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  3. Sherry, I am an SLP "stranger" who reads your blog daily, and I don't comment typically (just once I think) since you don't really know me, but I feel compelled to just let you know that someone is here tonight, reading, and sending you all my thoughts and prayers. May you have some peaceful rest tonight so you can resume the battle with all of your strength tomorrow. Many virtual hugs being sent to Logan, as well.

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  4. Thank you for sharing the blessings with us, what a precious picture of your family is in my head. Also, thank you for reminding us of the specific desires of your heart, so we can beg God with one unified voice. Praying for much rest for every member of your family!

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  5. I am praying for you and your sweet boy. No one should have to endure what he has and you have. May God bless you all and heal your boy. I pray for a miracle. My heart just aches for you all.

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  6. Just shared Logan with a new person last night... We'll all keep praying, Sherry -- for all of you. Even in the darkness, God is good!

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  7. Am praying like crazy and will spread the word.

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  8. Praying. Am always here reading and praying. Wish there was even more I could do.

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  9. me, mommy and by brother and sister are praying. (and mom is spreading the word and calling out for more prayers)

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  10. Logan IS that person to us Sherry! :) He feels like an extended part of our family even though we only spent time with him one year in school. He is SUCH an amazingly special person. We pray over him many times a day and there really are MANY others too who we keep in the loop. We've got an army going on here sister :o) And we will not cease!
    Lots of love and hugs and prayers to you and Logan and the whole family!

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  11. What a touching story! I don't know you or your family, but I believe in prayer and will be praying for Logan, God Bless you!

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  12. I put Logan on a couple more Prayer lists tonight too. Praying with all my heart for your sunshine - that God's miracle of healing be shown through him.

    Love in Christ,

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  13. Logan's prayer circle has been extended to two more churches through my job. We are all praying for him (and for you and your whole family) that the healing power of God's love may touch you all.

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  14. Sherry, we continue to pray daily for your son. My mom & dad are also praying. If we remain faithful, He will be faithful to hear our prayers. God's peace to you and picturing Logan "whole and healed"
    Much love, michele

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  15. Thinking of you all today.

    Kris

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  16. Dear Sherry and family,
    We are praying for Logan's healing and for strength and patience and rest for all of you.I don't remember which psalm it is from, but there is one passage that I repeated to myself so many times when we were in th Valley of the Shadow:
    'Be not far from me Lord, for trouble is near.'
    We are all beseching Our Merciful Father in Logan's name,
    Faith

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  17. We are with you in prayer Sherry, praying every day for a miracle for Logan.

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