Urgency

My heart is heavy, but I continue to hold on to hope. And it's not a function of me desperately grabbing onto something to keep myself afloat during this horrific time. No, it's me proclaiming Christ and affirming that God has the power to heal no matter how dire the circumstance, no matter how hopeless the situation may seem to human eyes. He merely has to choose to do it. Oh, to know the heart of God and to understand why this is happening to my sunshine would be such a sweet relief. But it's not mine to know, so I must hold onto faith and move forward. I have no reason to not trust, after all: He brought Logan safely through surgery on Tuesday, guided Dr. Sun's hands through the task of removing the mass in very successful fashion, and brought Logan home to us this afternoon, a mere three days after his operation. Since we're now more or less in Miracle Alley, as I call it -- a place where little short of a miracle will make Logan well -- I pray with every fiber of my being that He will choose to use the upcoming treatments to heal my son once and for all, just as he used the surgery Tuesday to bring healing to his brain.

I'm back again this evening to express my heartfelt thanks to our preschool. Ms. Kelly, the director, came by this evening with two huge bins filled with gifts for our kids and our family. Watching them sit there on the living room floor enthusiastically tearing through the bounty of generosity brought tears to my eyes for the upteenth time today. As awful as this journey is, we've been so blessed by the kindness of friends, family, even complete strangers. So a deep, sincere thank you to everyone from SLP who worked to brighten my family's day today.

I also felt pressed to return and write more because I wanted to be more specific with our prayer requests. Please pray, as I requested that you pray for the primary brain mass, that God would press his finger against the tumors in his spine and prevent them from growing -- and prevent new ones from forming -- in the days to come. The prayers worked the first time, since the primary mass remained stable between MRIs; please offer them up again. If they do grow larger, he could begin to experience weakness in his legs, and could even lose bladder control and the ability to walk. Please pray against those things. Pray the bold prayer that God will not only put a finger on the tumors, but that He would crush them into nothingness, that He would eradicate the cancerous cells from his precious little body. Pray it, visualize it. Pray also that his brain will remain clear of cancer; the radiation will focus first on his spinal column, since that's the current problem area, and it worries me to think of his brain being attacked once again while it's not undergoing direct treatment. Pray that the radiation would be completely successful and the side effects surprisingly minimal. And pray for wisdom for the doctors and for Adam and myself. In addition to radiation, Philippa called this afternoon and said that Dr. T. wanted to start him on two new chemo drugs as well to try to combat the spinal tumors; please pray that those drugs would be extraordinarily, mind-blowingly effective.

But more than anything, please just pray. Please petition God to restore my baby's health and well-being. I want him to grow up, to have a life here. He's an amazing person. He deserves so much better than this scourge that's invaded his body. He deserves more than a sad story attached to his name. Please ask God to heal him.

I can't really convey the depth of my emotions or how urgently I'm pleading with each and every one of you to pray as much as you can, as often as you can. How desperate I am for more prayer warriors to join Logan's team to lift him up. If each of you asked just one more person to join in, the wave of prayer would grow exponentially. Just imagine, for a moment, that it's your son, grandson, nephew. Your best friend's child. Pray as if Logan were one of those people, and beg God to heal him. I believe in the power of prayer. I believe in miracles. And I believe that there's a powerful story of redemption waiting to be written here. Thank you.