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Our family of 6 (dad Adam, mom Sherry, big sister Abby and little brothers Isaac and Brady -- who was born on December 14, 2010) joined the ranks of pediatric cancer fighters when our 4-year old son Logan was diagnosed with a dangerous and highly malignant form of brain cancer in mid-August 2010. Logan's cancer journey began abruptly on Sunday, August 15, when his right eye suddenly turned inward during dinner. Twenty-four hours later, we were checking into Children's Hospital Oakland and finding out that life sometimes takes you places you'd never, ever imagine yourself going.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Sunday Night

I'd intended to update last night, but my body had other plans. I laid down on my bed with Brady, who'd been crying hysterically, with the intention of nursing him to sleep at about 7:30. And I did. But I put myself to sleep, too. As a testament to how utterly wiped out I've been of late, I woke up at 6:45 this morning (after lots of overnight feedings, of course) and was still tired, almost as if I'd taken a sedative.

But that was hours and hours ago.

So the update on Mr. Logan. Dr. Sun popped by our spot in the PICU about an hour after I'd arrived for my shift yesterday (Saturday). He asked how Logan was doing, and when I said 'fine, but mad about being here', he said 'okay then, I'll send him home'. And so it was done: Monday turned into Saturday, and he was out by 5 PM. It was stunning, because we'd never before been discharged on a weekend and figured that it never happened. Dr. Sun reiterated that he felt it was important that Logan have a week at home to recover mentally and enjoy some normalcy before returning for a second go at the tumor. Much to Logan's complete consternation, he sent us home with a soft helmet that he has to wear for the great majority of each day; it's intended to protect the soft spot on his head from damage. He was not a single bit amused, but wore it today without complaint. (That in and of itself probably qualifies as a miracle.) I tricked it out with some 'racing stripes' (also known as medical tape in various colors provided by Ramona, a PICU nurse). I think perhaps that made the indignity more tolerable.

So that's where we are for now. We lunched at Fresh Choice at the mall this afternoon, and Adam took the kids for a stroll while I secured Valentine's Day cards and some candy for Abby, Logan and Isaac. I was completely dismayed to realize that I'd inadvertently forgotten about Brady, but excused the gaffe with the well, he falls under the 'less than two months old so it's not that awful that I forgot about his existence' category free pass. (And it's a good thing that today was the 13th, since he'll turn two months tomorrow.) Anyway, said oops sent me to Walmart later on, and Logan opted to accompany me. And I was reminded for the upteenth time that he's a wonderful, sweet little boy as he insisted on picking out 'birthday presents' for everyone in our family. And I spent much of my time pushing him in the shopping cart silently praying for his healing and the eventual redemption of this entire experience. I do that a lot these days.

Please keep praying for good things. I'm sure that it's selfish to insist on wanting him completely healed, but I continue to believe that he has so much to offer this world later in life. So, so much. Thanks and blessings to you all.


  1. Not one bit selfish to pray for complete healing of Logan! I agree with you that he is one Very special kiddo who has SO much to give to this world and he should have a long time to do so.
    SO happy that he is home!! We will be praying for an awesome, and hopefully a little bit relaxing, week at home and for a miraculous outcome of the next surgery. Praying over Dr. Sun that God would BE his hands during the procedure and also that God would protect everywhere else in Logan's body against any odd/uncommon things happening. Most of all praying for TOTAL healing as a result of this upcoming procedure as well as anything else God uses in the coming weeks to wholly eradicate this cancer. In the loving name of Jesus I'm praying...

  2. Aw, you are such a great mom! Keeping up the prayers for Logan and hoping that Mr. B will give you some respite.

  3. May God Bless Logan! Such a beautiful child who is blessing people around him every day. And, as you say, has so much to offer the world.

  4. Not selfish at all! We all continue to pray for complete healing! Happy Valentines day to you and your family. Joanne

  5. I will continue to pray for Logan and your entire family every day. I don't think it's selfish at all to want him completely healed. I only "know" Logan through your pictures and blogs, but I believe that he is destined for great things. He is a light, and he deserves to shine for a long, long time.

  6. No way is that selfish. How could you *not* want him to be completely healed?

    The fast service with respect to sending him home on Saturday makes me wish how nice it would be if everything were that 'easy'. I'm glad this went well for you.