Well, today's not the day Logan will come home. His Methotrexate level this morning came back at .34, still well-above the mystical clearance number of .1. I'm sad about it but trying not to let it ruin my day. More than being sad, though -- because honestly, it's a miserable, rainy day out and it's just as well that he stay snug in the hospital -- I'm scared. The last time he took a little longer to clear the Meth was cycle 2, when he wound up with an awful case of mucusitis combined with the gut infection that had him at CHO for 30 days. With both Christmas and baby's arrival just a few weeks away at most, it's very, very scary to think about a repeat of that disaster. The one bright spot is that his ANC was still 3300, so he does have some ability to fight off infection for now.
All of that aside, I'm upset for Logan. I don't want him to have to suffer those side effects again, especially since he's been so cheerful and active over the course of the past week. He's seemed so well that it would break my heart to see him take another dive.
Please pray that tomorrow will be the day that he clears the Methotrexate. He NEEDS to get it out of his system ASAP, or he may not make it home for Christmas or his little brother's birth. And that seems like almost more than I could take. It would be beyond unfair or unfortunate.
I will pray that tomorrow is the day that you see the "magic" number. Also that he does not end up with another illness like before. I really hope that he is home with his family for Christmas and the bith of his baby brother. That is where he belongs.
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Ugh. We'll keep praying for tomorrow!! And for no side effects with the longer clearance! How many days did it take him to clear on cycle 2 & 3? And how many days in is he now?
ReplyDeleteYou have seen the dark valleys and therefore it is reasonable that you fear their return. Please keep your mind open to the possibilities of grace and avoid the pitfalls of fear. That said, thank you for sharing your true feelings that we may pray informed powerful prayers on behalf of you and Logan and baby and all.
ReplyDeletePraying for that magic number in the morning and that Logan does not get any infections or set backs and can be home soon.
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PRAYING PRAYING PRAYING!!!! Begging God to put His healing hand on Logan to get the meds out of his system and make it a truly special month with Christmas and baby brother's appearance!! Praying Sherry!
ReplyDeleteSaid a very specific prayer.
ReplyDeletebeen paying all day and will continue to...lots of love :)
ReplyDeletePraying that you are only hours away from 'magic' numbers, Logan coming home, and baby boy arriving soon!
ReplyDeleteI am hoping that today is the day. Please, God?
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