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Our family of 6 (dad Adam, mom Sherry, big sister Abby and little brothers Isaac and Brady -- who was born on December 14, 2010) joined the ranks of pediatric cancer fighters when our 4-year old son Logan was diagnosed with a dangerous and highly malignant form of brain cancer in mid-August 2010. Logan's cancer journey began abruptly on Sunday, August 15, when his right eye suddenly turned inward during dinner. Twenty-four hours later, we were checking into Children's Hospital Oakland and finding out that life sometimes takes you places you'd never, ever imagine yourself going.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Feverish

I feel like my heart is a few inches from breaking. Molly called Adam this afternoon from CHO to tell him that Logan had spiked a fever... of 103. So he's officially stuck there until either he's afebrile for a few days and his pain level is under control, or his ANC recovers to 200. Last cycle, that happened on cycle day 20, cycle 2 it was day 23. I can't even explain how upset I am. I was so excited, so happy, so... well, lots of positive emotions... for the first time in a long while. And now... more fear. Fear about being alone with Abby, Isaac and Brady for a long while, fear about Logan not recovering in time for Christmas at home. On top of post-partum tiredness, it's almost more than I can take. I'd ask God why, but figure there's not a point. After all, why try to understand this one bit of the puzzle when the whole darn thing is so incomprehensible as it is? I feel like we get a tease of goodness, and then it's torn away again. I'm tired of this merry-go-round and wish we could just get off.

6 comments:

  1. So sorry, Sherry. We prayed that he'd be home for Brady's birth, and we've been praying that he'll be home for Christmas, and I trust that God will continue to answer prayers, even if not the way we had hoped for initially.

    Love you guys, and continuing to pray often.

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  2. first off i just want to say congratulations again for healthy baby brady!! so thankful he came before christmas and just as you said you were feeling so very "ready" to have him out :)
    but second, i want to say how sorry i am that your beautiful, wonderful day has been threatened by more fear having to have logan back at cho and wondering what's in store these coming weeks :( i am praying praying praying that the fever goes away FAST so he can be at home with your whole family for christmas! and also that there won't be any other complications. but most importantly praying for logan's total healing so he can be at home with his newest baby brother and to be the little sunshine for all of you. he's such a special and sweet boy.

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  3. I am sorry Sherry. It is so hard to read about all that you are going through. Praying for you.

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  4. Praying for all of you. Let me know if you'd like to send Abby and Isaac over to play with Kole and Jake. Especially next week when the kids are off school. We could walk over to pick them up.

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  5. Just so you know, Logan's Army is still growing! Several friends at work have been asking about you guys the past few days. . .ironic since you were in labor with Brady and now Logan is struggling. We are fighting with you and for you in Logan's Army and continue to lift up prayers for each one of you both day and night. I am so sorry that this is your current reality. Still praying. Sharon

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