At first, the dominant feeling was frustration, tinged with sadness. Had the events of the past year not happened, Logan would've entered Kindergarten today. As I caught glimpses of his should've-been classmates, dressed in their first-day finery and happily trotting toward their classrooms, my heart ached again for normalcy; to turn back the clock and erase all of the pain of the past year. All of the worry, the trauma, the heartache, the hopelessness, the fear.
And then the feelings morphed a little as I watched Logan and Isaac running together down the sidewalk. They're so close in stature right now that someone not in-the-know might assume that they're fraternal twins. But Logan kept pace with his little brother, and I suddenly became aware of the miracle inherent in the scene.
A year ago, we didn't know if Logan would still be with us today. Not only is he still here, but he's well enough to run along the sidewalk. He's small, frail and tires easily, but he's here. Despite my ongoing worries over his health status, he's come so far over the course of the past year. His tenacity, his maturity and so many other things about him astound me every single day. He's not just a 5-year old boy; he's a truly incredible person.
And he may not be going to Kindergarten this year as we'd always thought he would, but there are amazing things in store for him.
I, too, believe there are amazing things in store for Logan. :)
ReplyDeleteI am sorry about all the anxiety you are having. I am praying.
Congrats to Abby on her first day of 2nd grade! It goes very fast - I remember when we were in the pregnancy group together when we were pregnant with Abby and Kailey. Now 2nd grade! wow.
Amen to that Sherry! He IS an amazing person. So excited to see what is in store this year for him, as well as many years to come.
ReplyDeletePrayers, as always...