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Our family of 6 (dad Adam, mom Sherry, big sister Abby and little brothers Isaac and Brady -- who was born on December 14, 2010) joined the ranks of pediatric cancer fighters when our 4-year old son Logan was diagnosed with a dangerous and highly malignant form of brain cancer in mid-August 2010. Logan's cancer journey began abruptly on Sunday, August 15, when his right eye suddenly turned inward during dinner. Twenty-four hours later, we were checking into Children's Hospital Oakland and finding out that life sometimes takes you places you'd never, ever imagine yourself going.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

A Birthday

Today Brady turned one year old. In some ways it's almost impossible to believe that it's already been a year since his birth. In others, it feels like he should've turned 5 or 10. My heart feels old and haggard, so it's strange to think that I'm mom to someone who's a single tender year of age.

On the Logan front, things aren't particularly rosy. Despite incessant prayers that things would improve, they've only gotten worse. He's having increasing difficulty with walking and with bowel incontinence. As usual, we don't know why these things are happening. And the fact that they are happening has taken me to a new place in terms of figuring out what I believe with respect to faith, healing and Christianity.

It's become apparent to me that modern Christianity features two very different factions when it comes to healing: Those who believe that we can exact healing via belief and action of the Holy Spirit (a.k.a. those who truly believe --with their whole hearts-- that we can cast mountains into the sea), and those who don't. My heart wants to believe that the former is true. The notion gives me comfort. And honestly, the thought draws me closer to God. When I've been able to embrace the concept, I've spent more time in the Word and felt more confident in my faith. When I haven't believed it to be true, I've felt a sense of hopeless reticence. A sense of why would I bother to pray if my prayers don't matter?

It's very hard for me to look at my sunshine now and believe that he could ever be okay again. He's suffering. Yet we cry out every day, multiple times a day, for God to have mercy on him. It's maddening to watch what's happened to him. It's maddening to not know what's going on that's causing the problems with walking and incontinence.

I'm asking you all to have faith in healing for Logan. I'm asking you to pray for God to have mercy on my sunshine and make him miraculously well. I'm not asking you to pray a simple, non-committal 'thy will be done' prayer. It sounds weird, I'm sure, but God WANTS us to ask for what our hearts desire. My heart desires healing and nothing less. So please: Ask for it. Ask for improvements in his mobility. For healing of his damaged spinal column. For restoration and renewal. For life here on this earth. Because regardless of my weariness and sadness and hopelessness, I know that God hears those prayers and that they matter. So please, I beg you to send them up. I also remind you very seriously that there is a spiritual component to Logan's health battle, and ask you to take up your armor in his defense. He's SO worthy. I can't tell you how worthy he is.

Thank you for being a part of Logan's team.

5 comments:

  1. I'm always praying for you and your family... Thank you for sharing your life.
    May healing of all sorts happen to all of you during these difficult days.
    sending much love, always,
    Tere

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  2. Hi. Follow this, if you can...I found your blog via a friend who has a friend that married a man that either went to college with you or your husband (I can't remember which). How's that for 6 degrees of separation? Anywho, my friend thought you were here in Pittsburgh because of the Oakland reference (that's where our Children's Hospital used to be located). She thought we could meet or something like that. My son, Trey (3) is being treated for Stage IV Neuroblastoma and we've spent a lot of the last year at the hospital. I quickly realized that you're not near here, but have continued to follow your blog updates. Know that I have been praying for your sweet Sunshine. Our journey's may be a bit different, but as our family has goes through this cancer, I have felt many of the same things that you write about. I'm certain that many people have been blessed by your honesty, your story, your emotions. I don't know WHY God chooses to bring people closer to Him through these horrific circumstances, but I know that He does. I'm not quite sure why I felt compelled to comment on your post tonight, but maybe just to reassure you that people out here are praying and bringing Logan (and your whole family) before the Lord. I will continue to pray for a complete healing.

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  3. Here Sherry and totally, completely praying for God to HEAL Logan...nothing less, nothing less.
    Logan deserves (I know that's a bit of a controversial word amongst believers, but...) to live a full and healthy life. And not just Logan. But the WORLD deserves to have him here ~ healthy and for a long time.
    Love you guys.

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  4. Still praying and hoping. I wish you the absolute best outcome Sherry and wish I could do more. I think of you and Logan every single day.

    God bless you all,

    Rodney

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