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Our family of 6 (dad Adam, mom Sherry, big sister Abby and little brothers Isaac and Brady -- who was born on December 14, 2010) joined the ranks of pediatric cancer fighters when our 4-year old son Logan was diagnosed with a dangerous and highly malignant form of brain cancer in mid-August 2010. Logan's cancer journey began abruptly on Sunday, August 15, when his right eye suddenly turned inward during dinner. Twenty-four hours later, we were checking into Children's Hospital Oakland and finding out that life sometimes takes you places you'd never, ever imagine yourself going.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

The Logan Update: 5.15.11

Today was much the same as yesterday; I arrived early-afternoon to find Logan lingering between sleep and quasi-wakefulness. His WBC came in at 2.3 this morning (and apparently had surpassed 4 by this evening, per Adam's call a little while ago), and he received his usual tank-up courtesy of a sub-50 platelet count of 39. His enyzme levels again looked a little better, but his bilirubin and weight had both risen yet again. To extract the good from a bad situation, however, the bili level had risen less than it had in previous days, increasing a single point rather than two. Baby steps. Sometimes it's all about the baby steps.


They took him off of the high-flow nasal cannula sometime last night or this morning and replaced it with moisturized air, and added the facemask as well. He satted well thanks to the combination of the two, averaging 98 or so and sometimes reaching a full 100. He definitely still is in need of Oxygen, though, and panicked whenever he found himself breathing less easily.

Otherwise, he mainly slept during my bedside tenure. We waited all afternoon for a promised move to the 5th floor, but said move didn't come because of "staffing issues". So, perhaps tomorrow.

I'm so overcome with emotion much of the time these days that, ironically, it's hard to put it all into comprehensible words. Rather, it's hard to write them in a fashion that adequately expresses the intensity of my feelings. I hate --and I don't use that word lightly-- that Logan is suffering so profoundly. I hate the evil that is cancer. I look for the good, for the hopeful signs, but I can't lie: It's very hard. It's hard to see Adam only in passing, to be alone with Abby, Isaac and Brady most of the time. It's painful to realize that Logan will be in the hospital for weeks to come, and that he'll miss Adam's brother's wedding. Logan loves parties and dancing and celebrations, and it'll be painful to be there without him. I know that as much fun as weddings are, my heart will be elsewhere while it's going on. And I'm frustrated that my family continues to be hit, to be robbed of so much joy. It continues to be my prayer that we'll have overwhelming joy in the near future, and I thank you all for praying for that joy and for looking forward to it.

Please continue to pray for Logan's recovery and complete health. Pray also for our entire family as we continue to slog through this challenging time of separation and the heartbreaking pain of uncertainty. Blessings and have a lovely Monday because despite its lowly 'first day of the work week' status, it's always a blessing to have another Monday, a fresh start.

8 comments:

  1. There is nothing more appropriate than the word hate when it comes to what your family is going through and the word cancer.
    I am praying for your family!

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  2. Much love to you all. I am always praying for Logan's complete healing, peace, love and lots of joy for your family. You sure deserve it.

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  3. I'm so sorry to hear that Logan is in for another extended hospital stay, Sherry. I cannot even fathom what you're going through, and I thank God that you have Him to lean on, because otherwise you wouldn't be able to hang on. Focus on the Lord and know that we are all praying for Logan and his recovery to full health. (((hugs)))

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  4. YES ~ praying for that Overwhelming Joy in the day, weeks, months to come! Praying hard.
    Hugs & lots of love to all of you.

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  5. Yes, there is no other word for what Logan is going through than "hate". Keep up your hope that is in Christ. We are continuing to pray for Logan's complete healing and adding for that your entire family; Adam, you, Abby, Isaac, Brady and Logan have days of Overwhelming Joy again soon.
    Love & prayers

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  6. We're praying for Logan and all of you--for full healing and restoration of Logan's precious little body and all of your hearts.

    Love,
    Marisa & John
    Denver, CO

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  7. Every time I see the "Cars 2" trailer, I look forward to the day when Logan can enjoy it. I'm sorry to hear about the wedding. You all continue to be in our prayers.

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