It's so hard to hear words like that about my sunshine. Though I naturally feel a bit of relief over hearing that he doubts that what we're seeing is cancer-related, the fear still lives on. My immediate reaction was to recall the words that have come to me so often over the past days --things are not always as they appear-- and to breathe a sigh of relief. But then, of course, the devil's advocate spoke from somewhere within, casting doubt upon my relaxed mood, quietly whispering but what if it's the *doctor* who isn't seeing things as they really are? What if YOU are right, what if YOUR fears are the reality and he's not seeing what's actually going on? Yes, it's just oh-so-fun to be me.
I've prayed a lot over the past 24 hours; for Logan's healing, for our family, for the doctors to have the wisdom to make the right decisions. But mostly, for the big, ugly, daunting mountain to move.
I feel like we're facing urgent times now --if only because my sanity is suffering blow after blow-- so please keep praying for Logan's complete healing and for the rest of us. If you can think of anyone else who would be willing to join us, please extend an invitation.