I've been on quite the faith journey in recent weeks, though I admit I haven't written much about it until now. I feel like I've been standing on a precipice of sorts, ready to take a big, scary leap into real faith. Tested faith. It should, in theory, but the easiest kind of leap to make. But it's not. It is, in fact, incredibly difficult. But I'm working on it.
Here's the thing. If I believe that the Bible is true and that Jesus and God do not lie, then I should be able to claim the written word of God and own it. Really, truly own it and make it my own. The problem lies within my humanity; my frailty, my weakness, my doubts, my flaws. So instead of relying on ME to own my faith, I've been calling upon the Holy Spirit for help. For belief, for faith, for hope. For all of the things that I run out of on a daily basis. For the flat-out knowledge --not just suspicion, but knowledge-- that what I say I believe is real and true. For the courage to say that things will be all right; not that they may be all right or they will be all right eventually, but that they'll be all right period.
Why? Because Logan deserves that much from his mom. Because it's what's desired of us as people. Because I truly believe --from the tips of my toes clear up to the tippity top of my head-- that God is a God of healing. Because the Holy Spirit gives us the power, through Christ, to move those mountains.
Own it. Believe it for Logan and for the other seemingly insurmountable hurdles in your life. Mark 11:22.
Thank you for praying, for believing, for hoping, for standing firm, for wearing armor and for being here.
Hooray for you sherry! I am praying over here for complete healing, clean MRI & for god to move this mountain once & for all! Looking forward to good news!
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I'll be thinking of you all today.
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Oh Sherry (I realized that I misspelled your name before, btw, sorry!!), this just makes me say a big "Praise the Lord". This has been my prayer for you, and I praise God that He has already given you everything you need (Holy Spirit, through Christ!), and that you are making that leap.
ReplyDeleteYou know, a lot of people will talk faith, but not often do you see people actually making that jump. Not that I'm judging that - I myself would have been fine in that camp, except that I had no choice but to jump! ;) I am coming to learn that THE test of faith on our end is realizing that there is an end of yourself, and that everything - even faith itself - comes from God, and trusting that everything He said and did, indeed is true, and proving that out in this life, by allowing Him to flow out of us. That along with providing "every spiritual blessing" (Eph 1:3), that He has even given us the means to getting that to manifest in this life. And I hear ya, it can all be easier said than done, when we have been so conditioned to be driven by everything we see/hear/feel!
Anyway, I don't know that I can articulate well enough here, but know that I have walked such a similar walk (except your speed is quite more admirable!), and that God has not disappointed me. You will taste and see that the LORD is good, because He never fails. Logan indeed is blessed to have you as a mom, Sherry.