We have a relatively busy week coming up. Logan has a number of appointments, including an opthalmologist visit on Wednesday, and an audiology check the same day if someone else cancels. Friday is his big annual clinic visit, or what I've been calling the horse and pony show.
His limp has gotten worse over the past few days, so it's likely that he'll have to begin treatment with steriods in the near future to address the problem area on his spine. I'm not particularly happy about that idea, given that our past experience with such drugs proved that he's not immune to 'roid rage, but as always, we'll do what we have to do in order to help him. And if that means a mood swings and temper tantrums, so be it. At least he'll probably be hungrier, too, which may well more us closer to the removal of his port.
So what do we need in terms of prayer? First of all, continued peace. And of course, sustained and complete healing for Logan. We're so thankful that the MRIs came back looking stable last week, and we know that God can wipe out the issue in his spine with a thought, so please pray for that since I know it's probably a painful affliction for Logan (though he doesn't talk about it).
Finally, I need a little help with forgiveness. Just before Logan was first diagnosed with cancer, we were sent to an opthalmologist at CHO who dismissed our concerns and said to come back in six weeks if the issue with his eye hadn't corrected itself. Thankfully our pediatrician overruled him and we found the tumors when we did, but I realized this weekend that I still harbor a great deal of resentment toward the opthalmologist. It feels justified, in a way; after all, he's a specialist and should've sent Logan for a CT when he presented with his symptoms. Had we listened to him, my son would've died. Of course that didn't happen by the grace of God, but when I found out on Saturday that Logan's appointment on Wednesday is with the very same doctor, I flipped out. I'm sure he's a very competent physician, but I simply don't trust him. I do, however, realize that I need to forgive the mistake, so please pray that I'll be able to do that fully.
Thank you for being a part of Logan's team. Have a great week.