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Our family of 6 (dad Adam, mom Sherry, big sister Abby and little brothers Isaac and Brady -- who was born on December 14, 2010) joined the ranks of pediatric cancer fighters when our 4-year old son Logan was diagnosed with a dangerous and highly malignant form of brain cancer in mid-August 2010. Logan's cancer journey began abruptly on Sunday, August 15, when his right eye suddenly turned inward during dinner. Twenty-four hours later, we were checking into Children's Hospital Oakland and finding out that life sometimes takes you places you'd never, ever imagine yourself going.

Saturday, June 23, 2012

Paradise

Today was remarkable and wonderful for several reasons. But the one that's most important to me was also today's most substantial --and definitively unexpected-- surprise.

After dropping Abby, Isaac and Brady off with Adam's parents yesterday evening, we returned home and got up before the sun to catch our long-awaited flight to Kaua'i. Just the two of us. It's the first time that we've had a getaway involving just us since a friend got married when Abby was 11 months old. And the time before that? Our honeymoon, almost 10 years ago. We were, to be terse, quite overdue.

The frustration of having our original seat assignments wiped out was erased when we found ourselves in the coveted exit row, and the trio of small boys behind us were stunningly well-behaved. I sat playing a game on my iPad as the plane ascended. It was quiet. It was calm. The hum of the engine nearly lulled me to sleep. And then, after we'd been airborne for an hour or so, I heard it:

Mommy, I promise I'm fine. Really, I'm fine.

When I first heard that voice, I quickly convinced myself that I'd imagined it and went back to my game. But then it came back again, repeating those same words, and the tears just... came. Out of nowhere at all, it seemed, until I was almost completely overcome with emotion.

I poked Adam and told him I think Heaven is... and I looked out of the window... UP. And he said he'd been wondering the same thing.

I don't know why I felt like I did or why my sense of Logan was so strong on that airplane, but I do know that I felt closer to him than I have since he passed away. I felt like he was up there somehow. Like somehow, we were passing through his home and he took the time to say hi.

And I know that no matter how many wonderful things we see while we're here, those minutes high over the ocean will remain my best memory of all.

8 comments:

  1. What a wonderful surprise! So happy you were able to experience this.

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  2. That's amazing Sherry. Shedding some happy tears right now! I'm glad you and Adam were able to schedule a MUCH needed vacation!

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  3. I'm so glad this happened, so glad. Lots of hugs.

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  4. Oh Sherry! Such wonderful news! I had a similar experience on an airplane going back East to my grandfather's funeral. I know that he gave me a kiss on the cheek that night...I felt it...I felt his breath..I just know it. Same with your sweet Sunshine. It was him. It was all him...

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  5. That is so beautiful. Enjoy your trip-- sounds like it was worth the trip already!

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  6. That sounds so wonderful!! I am so glad you felt close to your little boy. And I hope you enjoy your trip and are able to relax and connect with your husband, and yourself.

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  7. So incredibly happy for you Sherry!

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  8. I hope that you and Adam are having an amazing time. You both need this reboot so very badly. I am most thankful that your sunshine reached out to you to let you know that he was ok. I know that you have been waiting for that.

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