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Our family of 6 (dad Adam, mom Sherry, big sister Abby and little brothers Isaac and Brady -- who was born on December 14, 2010) joined the ranks of pediatric cancer fighters when our 4-year old son Logan was diagnosed with a dangerous and highly malignant form of brain cancer in mid-August 2010. Logan's cancer journey began abruptly on Sunday, August 15, when his right eye suddenly turned inward during dinner. Twenty-four hours later, we were checking into Children's Hospital Oakland and finding out that life sometimes takes you places you'd never, ever imagine yourself going.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

The Longest Day and a Trip Home

Today didn't hold what I'd expected.

Abby and I set off for our mother/daughter dance class at 8:10 a.m.. I didn't really want to go, but decided that we should since, well, we're paying for it and all. We've missed several classes so we're a little behind, and I slogged my way through the routine, grumpily thinking that I just wanted to drop the class once and for all. But then suddenly, as we ball-changed our way to the back row with lightning speed, I laughed in spite of myself. I don't know why, but a thought occurred to me: "I have to do this dance. Logan would love to see this dance. I need to do it for him."

We swung through the McD's drive through and then headed home. Much to my surprise and alarm, Adam was sitting on the driveway with Isaac and Brady awaiting our return. He motioned that I should turn the car around, so I did. I asked what was going on, and he said that the PICU doctors had called several times to tell him that Logan's condition was deteriorating rapidly. We were, in no uncertain terms, to get there as quickly and as safely as possible. I cried as we headed for CHO. There was nothing else I could do and my mommy's heart sensed what was to come. I tried to fight it, but I knew.

We got there and Adam's dad took care of the car for us as we high-tailed it to his room. He was stable, but with a very, very low heartrate, very low blood pressure and very low oxygen saturation. When I saw the numbers on the monitor, my heart fell into my knees.

We had the kids come in to see him. Abby resisted at first, but finally relented. Isaac marched in, said hi to Logan and then asked to play a game on Adam's phone. Brady, well, he's 13 months old. He wanted me to nurse him. So I did. Logan's nurse, Ramona, took a few photos for us, and then Adam and I were left alone with Logan. The doctor came in and explained that there was so much CO2 in his blood that he was unaware of anything and in no discomfort. As we watched his blood pressure and saturations drop, he explained that we had two choices. We could either let him suffer a heart attack, or we could take off the BIPAP mask, hold him and see what would happen. As we mulled the torturous decision, our pastor showed up and I asked him for his thoughts. I'm so grateful that he came and that he was there to walk with us through such a horrible day. We opted to spare him the heart attack --which would likely have been painful-- and the team transferred him to the palliative care bedroom on the second floor. When we got there, I sat on the bed and he was lifted into my arms. Adam came and sat close-by, and Abby came in to say her good-byes. We were so proud of her for doing it; we didn't pressure her at all but she wanted to come tell her little brother and best friend that she loved him and would miss him, but that she knew she'd see him again in Heaven. We sang to him; I sang "You are My Sunshine" one last time, and Adam sang a collection of bedtime ritual tunes. He opened his eyes just a bit and I saw him take a few very weak, very ragged breaths. And then he was gone.

Shortly afterward as I sat there cradling his little bruised, battered body, I had a vision. I remember telling Adam 'Do you see it? Do you see it?' My mind was filled to the brim with an image of Logan. He was standing in white light. He had his beautiful strawberry blonde hair back and a smile on his face, and he was waving. He was happy. It gave me peace and broke my heart all at once.

But in spite of myself and my human imperfections and worries and fears and doubts, I know that I will see him again. I know that we'll dance together. I know that we'll laugh together. I know that this life is not the end. I know that some of you don't believe that's true, but I hope that you'll open your heart a little and give God a try. Logan did. And he's my hero. He's the bravest, most peaceful, most tolerant, kindest person I've ever known and I'm lucky to be his mommy, even if I can't hold him again during this life.

I think it's important that I reiterate that last point: God loves YOU. Just like He loves Logan and my family. Logan didn't get called home because God was a jerk or because He didn't care. I don't know why he was called home so soon. And I'll never really know. But we live in a fallen world, and I don't want anyone to ever blame God for what happened to Logan. Sin is rampant, evil is rampant. And sometimes, it looks like evil wins. But it doesn't. Because Logan is in Paradise. My arms and my heart ache to hold him, but he's in arms that are better than my own.

I cried as we drove home tonight. I have Lambie now, and Logan's best lovey has a very special place in our hearts. He was there for every shot, every round of chemo, every poke, every everything. But I cried because I don't want my sunshine to be forgotten. And then I got home and looked at Facebook. And I was completely overwhelmed when just about every post on my News feed --not my wall, but my News feed-- was devoted to my sweet boy. Thank you for making us feel loved and supported as we begin this journey to healing.

I also ask you to do one more thing for me, if you would. Logan was all about fun and laughing and dancing and sunshine. (And still is; we just can't see him for now and that's hard.) In memory of him, will you do something fun tomorrow, and then tell me what you did? And in a few days or when a thought strikes, would you share a way that Logan's life impacted you personally? It doesn't have to be something earth-shattering; just a thought. If you'd prefer to contact me privately, you can do so at slwight@gmail.com.

I thank you sincerely for your prayers over the past 18 months. We've thrived on them. We've survived on them. And our family needs continued prayers. Although Logan is whole and healed and dancing in Heaven, we have a long road to healing ourselves.

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  1. I have been praying for you and your family all day. I am in awe of your faith and strength.

    I think we will take our 7 yr old bowling tomorrow in honor of your request.

    God bless you.

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  2. My children and I have followed your recent blog posts. I'm so profoundly moved by this. We also sing, "You Are My Sunshine" -- I have a ringtone of my boys singing it to me. I'm sitting here bawling, amazed by the courage and faith of your whole family, and wondering if Logan is aware how many lives he has changed during his brief time here on earth.

    What an angel you loved.

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  4. have been keeping you in my thoughts and prayers for so long now... every day I would check. When I read the news this morning, I started crying and my heart sunk - for your family and all the struggles you have gone through.

    I first "met" you on Gather and watched your children grow up, your beautiful family.

    I'm so sorry for your loss and I hope you find comfort in knowing that your precious little angel is now watching over you!

    As I sit here, tears are rolling down my face and my 8 year old asks... "Mommy, what's the matter?" As a mother, I can't even begin to imagine.

    I promise to do something fun with my children tomorrow, in honor of Logan's life and all that he had to endure as such a young age!

    HUGS!

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  5. Sherry - I already said this on fb - but I simply can't get over your strength and grace. Especially on a day like today. Here you are in here sharing a blog entry with all of us. And so painful. I had to stop reading 3 (or more!) time bc my tears are falling fast and hard. And please forgive any typos b/c there are still tears in my eyes and I can barely see straight while writing this.

    I will be doing something fun with our kids tomorrow and will definitely report back to you. You and your family are in my prayers and I hope the beautiful thoughts of your sweet, precious, smiling, healthy, whole Logan will get you through all of the pain you are feeling.

    All my love!!!!

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  6. Oh my prayers for your family Sherry. I've seen your kids grow up on Gather, along with mine, and a lot of other Gather friends'.

    I will let you know what fun thing we do tomorrow in remembrance of Logan.

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  7. Sherry I posted on my status update butvsaying to you again how much Logan is loved and he will always be in my heart! I have been going through our vacation today with a heavy heavy heart and although we are headed to Disneyland tomorrow my heart was just not feeling it... Instead I am going to dedicate our day to Logan. We will ride every Cars ride we can in his honor. I have watched morevthan one person die and I know for a fact that our bodies are shells and that the spirit does live on. You and your family are so loved....

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  8. We do not know each other, but we have many mutual friends via LJ and FB. I wanted to offer my sincerest condolences, and tell that your strength is amazing and inspiring. Sending lots of love to you and your family.

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  9. Heavy hearted all day and lifting you all up in prayer. But... will be joyful with my boys tomorrow and share what fun we have. You are amazing. We are here to help however we can.

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  10. Even through the tears, I promise we will do something fun tomorrow in honor of Logan. = )

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  11. My heart aches for you Sherry. What a lovely tribute to Logan. There is a reason he was so brave - he learned it from his Mamma! I can't thank you enough for sharing your journey with us, the exhaustion must have been overwhelming to you, yet you found the strength to write the words to share. You are an AMAZING mother. I have always thought of you, but even moreso now.
    Prayers of peace and guidance as you move forward.

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  12. You are so brave in a world so uncertain. You provide courage to those unable to move ahead. Your faith is a gem. You are one of my heroes. I just wish to hug you, to thank you, for sharing this page in history... I know Jesus smiles on you & your family... He is proud. I am blessed you..... tere

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  13. *..... I am blessed to know you. Tere

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  14. We are an SLP family and have seen you and Logan at school. I have been following your blog for the last 6 months, maybe longer, and my heart has been breaking with yours. I have been praying for Logan and waiting on Gods miracle. I do still believe that god will use Logan's life to perform a miracle, just not in the way we expected. Praying for you and your family during this time.

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  15. I have been following this blog through Lara Marriott (my cousin) and your words of faith and trust are amazing! I am so sorry for your loss and pray for your healing hearts!

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  16. My heart is so full...I couldn't sleep and I'm so glad that you posted. I was going to include this verse in my message to you earlier, but didn't because...well, just because. "You are strong in the Lord and the power of His might." I'm so proud of you. You are such a beacon of light to everyone who comes to read here. What a testimony you are to God's faithfulness. Thank you so much for sharing and being so open. I love the vision that God gave you. What a treasure! You will remain in my prayers, my friend and sister in Christ. And one day, we will meet - whether here or in Heaven with Logan. Bless you. Peace, comfort, and strength to you. Grace.

    Much love, Michele

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  17. I have also been following your blog through Lara Marriott... I find there are no words from me that would be adequate, however, you were beautifully eloquent in your expression of love and grief. May God bless your family with his peace and comfort this evening. You will be in my prayers. "He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” Rev 21:4

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  18. Fly free on the wings of angels Logan!

    Caroline, Melbourne Australia (WC.LJ.FB)

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  19. God will wipe away all the tears from your eyes.

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  20. Sherry, you know I have been praying for you and Logan since the beginning. Your courage and your faith have been truly inspiring. And Logan, with his sweet smile...his bravery...his strength...they have changed my life in so many ways. I appreciated my children before, but now I am so much more aware of how fleeting life can be. I remember daily to just stop and take it all in. And thank God for all that He has given me.

    I prayed for healing for Logan daily, and now I will pray for healing for your family. As saddened as I am by this news I will take comfort in knowing that Logan is no longer in pain, and that he is in the arms of Jesus looking down on all of us.

    My kids have requested that we spend the afternoon painting. So that's what we're going to do. I'm going to leave the dishes and the laundry and the cleaning. I'm going to spread newspaper on the living room floor and we are going to get on our hands and knees and paint. While we watch Cars. And I am going to soak in my blessings.

    Much love to you and the rest of your family.

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  21. Sherry I am heartbroken for your loss but I am happy that Logan's suffering is over. I can imagine that he is singing and dancing while being surrounded by the Glory of the Lord in Heaven. Logan's story, your family's story during this time has helped to put a lot of things into perspective in my life. The courage your little one showed during this battle is behind awesome. Logan's story reminded me that we need to all pray for one another because there are things we battle which are unseen. There is no greater ally to have on our side than God. I pray for your family's strength during this time and for emotional healing.

    "To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified." - Isaiah 61:3 KJV

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  22. Sherry,

    My heart is just broken for all of you. This post is such a moving testament to Logan and the love you have for him. Your grace, honesty and strength was a gift for him and will continue to be so for Adam and the kids in the upcoming days.

    That image of Logan is beautiful. It is a comfort to know he is happy and dancing and pain-free.

    Love to you.

    Kris from LJ

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  23. Sherry, I am holding you and your family in my heart and prayers.

    Jennylou from cc

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  24. My heart just broke when my niece Julie posted on FB that your sweet & precious Logan had gone to be with Jesus. Keeping you, your husband and entire family in my prayers. Praying that God will keep His arms around all of you each day....

    Kathi (aunt to Julie Braden)

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  25. Sherry, I don't even know what to say. I am so very sorry. Sending you and your family lots of love and prayers. I want to say so much more but I can't even put my thoughts into words.

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  26. Keeping you and all the family in my heart, my prayers, and my love.

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  27. I am so heartbroken for your family. I have been following this post for a very long time and prayed for Logan daily. Godspeed, sweet Logan.

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  28. Sitting here in the early morning hours feeding my babe I read a link my friend posted leading me to you. Sherry, you and your family are amazing and it sounds like you have been blessed with an amazing boy that filled your heart and life with sunshine. God challenges us with only that which we can handle. Logan must be one strong little man and he has taught us all to value the little things and what we have.

    I will spend my day with my family and hold them tight while thinking of you and your family. God blessed you with a beautiful boy and he blessed you with the strength you have exhibited in over the past 18 months to focus on all the beauty in your life and Logan's. Today I will follow your example and focus on everything good God has given me.

    Thank you for sharing your life with us, you are in our prayers.

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    1. I'm Adam's classmate from high school and I'm terribly sorry for your loss. Today, I'm in California and my family is halfway across the world. So, in honor of Logan, I just skyped to Helsinki and read my 10 month old a story. It's a story I brought to California so I could read it every morning at 10 am when Augie is going to bed in Helsinki. Today, however, when I read about Logan, I realized the story was in another part of the house. Not wanting to wake anyone else up, I decided to read the story from memory and make silly hand gestures illustrating the story. This proved to be more fun for all of us and caused many laughs and giggles. As I can see from your photos of Logan, it seems a fitting gesture for a boy who went on laughing in the face of a great battle.

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  29. We are all so lucky to have our sweet children in our lives, even for a little while. I too lost my son. He was one month old and never left the hospital after he was born. Know that you are in my thoughts. Much love - Jaipi and family

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  30. We're making heart cookies today. But this time, they're not for Valentine's Day. They're for you ... and for Logan.
    Linda Ann

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  31. I am so, so sorry to hear this news. I don't know what to say. I agree with all the others who have said that you are an amazing example of faith, and Logan is so, so lucky to have you as his mom, just as you are lucky to have him as your little boy. I'm happy to hear that the Lord gave you a last vision of Logan as he is now, and always will be: shining, happy, and full of eternal life. He will be with you every day, in everything that you do. I wish that God will grant you peace as you go through this terrible time of grief. Please know that there are many out there who are grieving with you, and that Logan will never be forgotten. He will continue to do amazing things, in ways no one ever expected. Blessings and comfort to you and your family.

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  32. Sherry, Thank you for the way that you have faithfully reflected our Lord and Savior's love for us to all who have been following you and your family through your updates. I pray for you and your family, and also that God uses Logan's story to open more hearts to his love and redeeming grace. May God bless you and keep you, safe in his arms,
    Love,
    Bruce Jamieson

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  33. Oh Sherry, my heart is breaking for you. Your vision of Logan was so comforting to me. And I sing "you are my sunshine" to Allison nightly, since she was a baby. And I bought her a sign yesterday that I put in her room that says it and little did I know what you were going through at that time. When a baby has passed at work, this song is always comforting to me by Celine Dion:

    Fly lyrics
    Fly, fly little wing
    Fly beyond imagining
    The softest cloud, the whitest dove
    Upon the wind of heaven's love
    Past the planets and the stars
    Leave this lonely world of ours
    Escape the sorrow and the pain
    And fly again

    Fly, fly precious one
    Your endless journey has begun
    Take your gentle happiness
    Far too beautiful for this
    Cross over to the other shore
    There is peace forevermore
    But hold this memory bittersweet
    Until we meet

    Fly, fly do not fear
    Don't waste a breath, don't shed a tear
    Your heart is pure, your soul is free
    Be on your way, don't wait for me
    Above the universe you'll climb
    On beyond the hands of time
    The moon will rise, the sun will set
    But I won't forget

    Fly, fly little wing
    Fly where only angels sing
    Fly away, the time is right
    Go now, find the light

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  34. Hello my name is Sandy Hansen and i am friends with Kari jackson. She has been sharing your families story with me. I want to extend my deepest sympathy's with you and your family. I could not help but cry while reading your last post and commend you for being able to write that only after one day, but I know where your strength comes from. I lost my mom just 6 short months ago and have been wrestling with the why's so many times. While reading your post I was reminded that we will never now why, but that my mom like Logan are now in their perfect bodies. They are running, dancing, singing, and skipping with our Lord and Savior ! I thank you for your strength and for sharing it with us. Today I am together with my family and some extended family for my daughters pre-school performance. Nathalie is in the same class as ZZ. We will remember Logan today and celebrate family and play together <3

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  35. I took my three year old daughter to the botanical gardens this morning. The sun was warm on our faces as she skipped around and fed the ducks. I thought of your boy. May God bless you and your family.

    Ulrik, Manhattan Beach CA

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  36. Dear Adam, Sherry & Children...I just found out a while ago as Kristine posted this link...

    Now I know why I was standing outside in the backyard last night with my face towards the cold, cloudy night sky feeling the sprinkles of much needed rain upon my face and smiling; perhaps, Logan was dancing among the rainclouds and laughing at my childish play!

    Our love to you and your family. May God Bless you, as I am sure He already has...
    Jane and Robert & Family...

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  37. Sherry, I know about you, Logan and your family because I am an online friend of Christine Roosa's from Wisconsin.

    What you wrote above was so beautiful Sherry. What a testament that in your deepest sorrow you also feel the love peace that only God can supply. I will continue thoughts and prayers for you and your family as you celebrate the life of your precious, precious little boy.

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  38. Sherry and family, we have been thinking of you all day. There have been many tears and I have re-read your post over and over again. I can't stop thinking about you and your strength. And Logan's strength too. You both are simply amazing to me.

    Today, we are honoring Logan. We started by going to church. Then, we came home and created valentine's - really messy ones. Right now we are baking cookies. And next we will be doing play-doh. All of those activities are something I can't stand doing with the kids bc the mess left behind is unreal. But I am letting it go today..... And maybe forever. Life is too sweet and too short to worry about play-doh stuck to my floor or kitchen table. Too short to worry about flour covering my entire kitchen. Or glitter or glue. So we are letting go of mommy's issues and just having a fun day. My kids are smiling and enjoying the activities. Lots of laughter and smiles. And it's all for Logan and you and your family.

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  39. I am Kari's mom, and have been praying for Logan and your family daily. Kari kept me informed, and I was blessed to be able to join in prayers said by Derek and ZZ whenever I was at their house. You are loved and lifted up by so many people, and Logan has touched many, many hearts. Thank you for sharing your journey and letting your light shine as a witness to God's love.

    I have been giving to St. Jude's Children's Research Hospital for many years now, since homeschooling a wonderful young man who was battling cancer. I will let Logan's light shine by dedicating an additional gift to support more research in his honor. Bless you and your family, and Thank You for your gift of faith.

    Yours in Christ,
    Peggy

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  40. We don't know why Logan was taken so early and we never will but what I do know is that eyes are open to love and have fun with their kids...because of Logan. I know that someone's (if not many) faith has been renewed... because of Logan AND I know that someone (If not many) have found JESUS....because of LOGAN. Logan in his few, FIVE (to be exact) years did what most of us can't do in a lifetime. God Bless you Logan and your amazing self-less family that even in this time of tragic loss, is glorifying Jesus first! Praise God for the blessing of Logan.

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  41. I came accross the Facebook Post about Logan today... Sherry, you are an incredible Mother, what a light you hold. To see your complete surrender in Jesus is powerful...

    Jesus asks us to claim his promises and this rings true, CLAIM IT: “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Truly, I believe that God in his divine Grace is knowing of all things & has power in all things..

    Jesus came to give us an opportunity to live life abundantly and He wants us all to LIVE.. Keep living in the knowledge that one day you will be reunited, and let your light shine into the world as a reflection of both Gods Love & Grace.

    My thoughts are with you and your family at this time.

    Blessings,
    Jessica

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  42. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

    In honor of Logan we went to the park today and our kids played and ran and laughed.

    I am overcome with emotion for you. You are so strong and Logan was blessed to have you as his Mom.

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  43. I'm just now reading your post, a day late. I stayed home from church today with four sick kids, and up until about 20 minutes ago, was griping to myself about what an awful day it's been.

    So tomorrow I'm going to let go and just thoroughly enjoy my children. I'm going to not care about messes or noise or chaos, but we're going to embrace it as much as we can with the sickies still in the house.

    Thank you for the reminder of how very short and fragile life really is.

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  44. I am so sorry to hear of your loss thru Renee. We aren't connected on gather. Your post is so touching of your loss. So full of truth. I am glad that you believe the way that you do...and you will indeed dance with Logan in heaven!

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  45. I am so, so sorry that Logan is no longer with you and everyone that loved him. I am praying that Jesus will heal all the wounds that have been given by the past year and a half, and now by Logan's death. It has been a sad day for us here, thinking about the end of his beautiful little life on earth, but we did honor your request by having a family dance party in the living room. And it was fun, and I will remember to celebrate more often because of Logan. Peace be with you.

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  46. much love and many prayers to you and your sweet family. i am learning that heaven is not so very far away, even when it may feel that way. "there will be a day, with no more tears, no more pain, no more fears..."

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  47. Today, I was blessed to be able to spend 3 wonderful hours with my 3 year old grand-daughter that I very seldom get to see - after her mom asked me to provide her a break. It was quality, fun time - making sweet memories with her...and I made sure she knew how much Jesus loves her.

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  48. I love and admire the way you love and trust God, Sherry. Thank you for never backing down from what you believe - it speaks volumes about your true relationship with God. And thank you for sharing such intimate sweet last moments with your Sunshine. I am certain that he leaped into the arms of Jesus with a smile on his face, knowing how much he was, and will continue to be loved. I hope you'll keep in touch in the future, as I've really enjoyed our email conversations. God bless you and your family mightily, Sherry.

    xoxo,
    Yoojin

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  49. Sherry, Hello. My Name is Christopher Jones. First, I want to say how sorry I am for your loss of your sunshine, I too have lost a son due to illness. His name was Joshua and he was 4 years old when he went home to be with the Lord. When I read your posts,the things you shared brought back so many memories of the ups and downs my wife and I shared with battling with Joshua against his luekemia, but what we learned from that experience and God's loving faithfulness will never be forgotten. We have started a foundation in his name, to help families who have lost their children due to an illness, we help with the costs of funeral arrangements, during a time such as this it is hard to get your mind to wrap around you having to bury your child and the costs can be staggering, this is our way of honoring our son by helping other families get through this time without the worry of how will they pay for another expense. I know of some of the feelings you are going through, but if I may encourage you, they do get lessened and God's grace becomes even greater as the days go by. My heart goes out to you and your lovely family. Some couples have had a hard time with this and it can lead to a heavy toll on their relationship, with yours I can truly say this will not be the case, I know that your family is safe and secure in the Master's care and you and yours will come through this stronger,wiser and more ready to further the Kingdom's purposes for your life's. I am praying for you and your family, if you need someone to talk with,to pray with who knows the struggle of this, I am here for both of you. May the peace of Yeshua be yours now and forever more. my email is antuainjones@gmail.com

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  50. Sherry, you don't know me but I have been praying for your family. I am Amy's cousin. I have only been folowing your blog for a short time. I pray for God to give you and your family strength during this difficult time. No parent should have to grieve their child. You now have a beautiful Angel watching over you and your family. I belong to a fabulous group of Women who are spread all over the world, I have asked them all to pray for your family and read your blog. We are a group of 115 women strong. So if you see anyone sign in the signature block from the YM group, that is our Yummy Mummy group. I want to share a quote thatI recently shared with a Mum who delivered her second baby this year, sleeping...........

    I know for certain that we never lose the people we love, even to death. They continue to participate in every act, thought and decision we make.

    Their love leaves an indelible imprint in our memories. We find comfort in knowing that our lives have been enriched by having shared their love.

    Leo Buscaglia

    Everyday I sing and dance with my Ava. Our song is You are my sunshine....but today it will have special meaning..we will dedicated it to Logan.

    With all my heart, I pray for your family.
    Love, Anna
    YM Group
    annasteppich@gmail.com

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  51. Thank you for the invitation to post during this season of your lives. As you asked, yesterday I spent the whole morning at my church(where I am every Sunday morning) with the Kindergarten through Fifth grade children. Being with children is one reward of the world that you speak of in your February 11 post. To hear children talk about Jesus and then to experience them accepting Christ, well nothing is any better. Your Logan and you his family has given me a glimpse of what Christ following people should look like. To read your feelings as you have walked this path the last 18 months has been uplifting, happy, sad, and most of all encouraging. The love that you speak of that God has for us is amazing. In my life I have felt God and his Son Jesus embrace many, many times. I am so thankful that my parents loved so much that they lead me to Christ as I was growing up. As parents you are doing the same thing and you will never have one moment that you wished you didn't. Please know that I pray that time will heal most of the hurt and you will be able to rely on your memories and as you have said you will have the comfort that Logan has already met Jesus and they have skipped together many many times. Love! Love! to all of you. Linda Lee Smith, Boonsboro, MD

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  52. What an inspiring mom and woman you are. I want to send my thoughts and prayers to you, Adam, Issac, Abby, & Brady. In honor of Logan we are going to find joy in little things everyday. Whether it be more play time, more silly movies, or more cuddles. We will think of little Logan in our times of Joy. Thank you for sharing such an inspiring story. May God bless and look over your family always.

    ~Laura
    lksummers73@hotmail.com

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  53. Sherry, please know that our hearts and our prayers are with you and your family. Thank you for sharing your sweet, strong Logan with all of us. In honor of Logan we spent some time at the park this past Sunday with my two year old son, and danced up a storm at The Fresh Beat Band Concert. I want you to know how much Logan's courage and your fierce mama love have changed our lives, so I've written about it here: http://mamabythebay.com/2012/02/13/for-logan/

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  54. Sherry, I am a friend of Tracee's and have been following your blog for quite some time now. I have been so touched by your story and haven't been able to get Logan out of my mind since reading this post. My son's favorite song is "you are my sunshine" and I will always think of Logan when we sing it at bedtime.

    We are on vacation right now and I spent yesterday morning snuggling with my daughter and son, letting them play whatever they wanted on the ipad, watching their favorite shows, and setting up and playing with some "take and play" train sets that my son absolutely adores - just a day of soaking in their little selves.

    I hope that the days and weeks ahead are not too difficult and that you and your family are able to find comfort in one another. keeping you all in my thoughts...

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  55. Prayers, that is all I can offer
    Libby
    YM Group

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  56. Jehovah resurrected Jesus, and furnished us with a guarantee when doing so: soon there will be a (great) resurrection of both righteous and unrighteous persons. Back to the dust we go when we die, awaiting a resurrection to life back on earth again.

    Your son Logan has a very beautiful smile. Jehovah remembers pure smiles.

    Build hope that you will see him again on this earth, where we're created to live forever in a paradise.

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  57. Sherry,

    In Logan's memory, we danced and had fun being a family, we went and got family pictures done and then want out to supper.

    Liam wanted to watch Cars2 in Logan's honour, also.

    Continued Prayers, your words have touched me deeply.

    Joelle

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  58. Sherry,
    You don't know me, but I was a member of CC, LJ, and am on the facebook LJ's on Facebook page. I am so sorry for the loss of Logan, the pain your family has, and the dimming of the sunshine. Thank you for sharing the journey and for reminding me what a gift every day is. I read your last post and cried, sobbed really. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you and I will do my best to honor Logan's life in the time I share with those I love in mine.
    Blessings to you and yours,
    Karin

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  59. Sherry,

    I have been thinking of you and your family ever since reading this post. I am so sad for all of you and for your loss of Logan. I hope you and Adam are able to find comfort in each other and in Abby, Isaac, and Brady - the joy of young children really is amazing and so wonderful.

    Many kind thoughts going out to your family from ours.

    Jaime (Braun) McMahon (and Mark McMahon), from CMC

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  60. This is a beautiful post. I am so sorry for your loss. In honor of Logan, I am going to ride bikes in the sunshine today with my own strawberry blond 4-year-old son. YOUR strawberry blonde sunshine won't be forgotten.

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  61. Am thinking about you guys today. A lot.

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  62. Hi Sherry, my daughter Isabelle is in Abby's class. I was heartbroken when she came home on Tuesday and told me of Logan's passing. I had the privelge of having Abby in my group on the last field trip. She spoke of her brothers so sweetly. I've asked the girl's teacher if there's any way to send you a card with condolances, provide meals, or gift card for meals, or if there is a fund set up we can donate to. We'd like to help in any way we can. If Abby would like to go out on a playdate with Isabelle to get her out of the house, we'd gladly do that. Please let us know in anyway that we can help. I'll provide my information to Mrs. B to give to you. Above all else, we are believers as well and will continue to pray that God blesses you with strength and comfort.
    God Bless,
    Stacy, Omar, Isabelle, and Elias Morales

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  63. Hi Sherry! I'm the daughter of Veneda who attends Fairfax Baptist. She forwarded your last post to me this morning and I cried as I read it. I'm so sorry for your loss. We have one daughter who's 18 months and I will take her to the playground today in memory of Logan. My prayers go out to you and your husband and your children.

    God bless,
    Jennifer V.

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  64. Hi Mrs. Wight. You may not know me, but my name is Alyssa. I am 11 years old and I have a sister who is 8. We go to Centerpointe church, and I saw Logan dance at Jazz n Taps. I prayed for Logan with my family ever since we heard about his sickness. I think he was a very cute little boy when I saw him in his Jazz n Taps picture. Your post inspired me a lot because when my sister was 4 years old, she was diagnosed with mild autism. Even though mild isn't much, sometimes her behaviors are hard to deal with. On the good side, my sister draws very well and she is very creative in a way. She also has a lot of friends. She can do lots of things that people without autism can't do.After reading your blog with my mom, I realized that if you can be strong about Logan, that I can be strong about my sister. And yes, I believe you will see Logan once again. We will keep praying. Thank you for being inspiring to our family.

    Sincerly,
    Alyssa and family

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  65. This post is the first of any I've read. I'm so sorry for your loss, but I'm so thankful that you have your faith in God to get you and your family through this hard time.

    Something that really hit me was your vision. I lost my cousin whom I loved dearly last July. After months and months of grieving, one night before Christmas I heard God asking me to pray in the middle of the night. I got to my knees, started to pray, and was blessed with a vision of my cousin being with Jesus. And being restored to the happy, healthy, whole person that I hadn't seen in a while. Knowing that, though it didn't take the grief away, gave me an incredible peace.

    Love and prayers to you and your family.

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  66. Hi Sherry,
    I'm in your mother/daughter class on Saturdays and our daughter Paige was in Logan's dance class for "I want Candy/ The Candyman." I wanted to thank you for your amazing blogs. What a beautiful message of a mother's love and of God's love for all of us. Logan is an amazing spirit and I know he is up in heaven dancing with our maker right now. We are all privliged to have known such an amazing soul.

    Logan's story has brought my family closer to God and we couldn't be more happy. I am now living everyday to the fullest, enjoying every moment I have with my husband and children. I savor the "just sitting around the house time" and make it a time of more kisses and cuddles. My daughter and son both gush from all the love they are feeling inside and its because of your beautiful boy.

    Thank you for the strength and courage to love that you and your family have given me. You are truly blessed!

    Love,

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  67. I don't have anything profound to say. So many of the comments above say it all. I did not have the privilege of meeting Logan, but I am in awe of his story. God blessed all of your family with strength beyond my comprehension. I will hold my children a little bit longer tonight and laugh and share some smiles. Thank you for sharing your courageous journey.
    -Becky

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  68. I have not been in the blogger community in a very long time. And I came straight to your blog. Hoping to see that Logan was doing well. I breaks my heart that he is no longer here. Today is International Bereaved Mother's Day. I will definitely be keeping you and your family in my prayers.

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